“She sat in the Starbucks cafe, sipping her coffee and staring out of
the window. The blood stained knife lay next to her handbag, covered
with her blue silk scarf...” He paused staring at computer screen,
wondering if these words held the meaning he intended to impart to
them, the cursor blinking at the end of his sentence. Rohit stood up and
stretched, yawning to his heart's content, he was bored, maybe he
needed to take a break, a coffee break, he smiled at the thought. It
was nearly 8 p.m, Arpita should be back from work soon. Without
sparing a second thought he walked over to the closet, threw on a pair
of track pants over his shorts and a T-shirt, grabbed his car keys and
rushed out of the apartment. It was a dull Friday evening, it had been
raining intermittently all day yet it was quite humid and oppressive for
lack of really heavy showers. How he wished for rain, proper torrential
rain that would wash away yesterday's dirt and grim.
After waiting few minutes for the lift, he suddenly decided to climb
down the stairs, not a small feat considering they lived on the 13th
floor. He had been stuck in a zone for sometime now and couldn't
seem to break out of it, his story was due tonight but the words were
stuck in his head somewhere refusing to form a story, a concrete story.
Rohit knew why he felt so thwarted, after all life was boring and
perfect, they had a lovely apartment in a posh part of the city, his wife
had a high profile job at a advertising agency, he had the luxury to
quit being a corporate slave and follow his dream to be a writer, but
after the initial euphoria everything is just the same, same old boring
life. Reality is the worst thing that can happen to anyone, he thought
gloomily looking at the overcast sky as he walked out of the building.
The keys jangled in his pocket, again impulsively he thought of
walking instead of driving, maybe a walk would clear his head and
taking things in might help him to form an idea for a story. There are
two general ways one usually tells a story, either they focus more on
the surrounding and describe every thing in painstaking details, how
the pavements looks and feels as someone walks on it, the detailed
descriptions of people walking by and so on. Or one focuses on how
the protagonist feels and thinks as he or she walks on that pavement,
Rohit was more of the later since most of his thoughts were quietly
introspective, but he felt his story telling lately was lacking a punch,
maybe it was time to try a different way. He sighed, feeling tired,
everything seemed like a good idea at first but now he was feeling
tired and worn out. Turning left by the corner of the road, he walked in
to a sleepy little coffee place. It was nearly 8:30 pm now yet the place
was strangely deserted. The coffee shop had wooden flooring which at
first glance would appear dark and drab, but the thing which drew him
to this place were the glass wall overlooking the street. He looked
around searching for a perfect spot, the pain of too many options.
He was about to take a seat when he saw her....sitting by herself,
sipping her coffee and staring out of the window. Something lay next
to her handbag, covered with her blue silk scarf...he felt quite light
headed all of a sudden, it was as if reality was slowly slipping away
from him. Rohit steaded himself grabbing the chair by his side, it
creaked under his weight, a jarring noise which broke the spell of the
moment. She turned to look at him, she had startling clear gray eyes.
There was a slight buzzing in his head. He smiled at her, feeling silly.
She smiled back, which gave him the courage to approach her.
“Is this seat taken?” He asked pointing to the chair facing her, she
smiled, nodding yes. He felt surprisingly crestfallen and was about to
leave when she grabbed his hand, “I was only joking! Please sit.”
Rohit seated himself, feeling ridiculously happy and awkward. It had
been too long since he had coffee with such an attractive woman. She
seemed to guess his discomfort, but didn't try to initiate any
conversation, just smiled at him and twirled her slender fingers over
the handle of her coffee mug. He was aware of the noise of the city
behind him, the buzzing in his head had subsided. He felt he must
break the silence, after all words were his best comfort.
“Do you come here often? I mean to say I haven't seen you before...”
He grimaced at how awkward he sounded, maybe silence was better.
She smiled again, and looked away. He had half a mind to apologize
and just walk away when she spoke, “I was wondering if I would see
you tonight, you come here quite often....” an eerie feeling gripped
him, when had she seen him? Did their path ever cross before? Was he
thinking about her when he was writing today? Looking at his
thoughtful and puzzled face, she laughed softly, “Did I creep you out
or something? I am not a stalker, don't worry...”
“Oh no! It's just a very strange coincidence. I had been writing a short
story today, I write for a weekly column in 'The Time', and I was
describing this very scene, a beautiful girl sitting by herself, sipping
coffee and her blue silk scarf....” He trailed off glancing furtively at the
object covered by the silk, the scarf had a very detailed floral pattern
stitched in white...The object looked suspiciously sharp and elongated.
She arched her eye brows, “Oh! you are a writer then?” He smiled
sheepishly, “Well, I try...I am Rohit by the way”, he was starting to feel
normal again, enjoying her pretty face, such stark grey eyes, so
unusual! She laughed again, this time, a harsh hacking sound, not
really soothing, Rohit squirmed a little in his seat.
“How would be like to be part of a story?
He stared at her, a little lost for words, “I am sorry? I didn't quite catch
that...?” She sighed, “Would you like to walk with me...” He blinked
twice before mumbling, “I don't even know your name..”
She seemed disappointed, “Names are meaningless but if you must
insist, you can call me Lisa. So would you like to take a little stroll with
me?”
“Where would you like to go?” He asked, tempted by the thought yet
not quite sure if he should, Arpita must be back from work.
“Just round the corner, here and there”, She shrugged, her right
shoulder had a pretty little mole on it, “Well, then?” she stood up
gathering the mystery object and her scarf, stuffing them into her tan
leather handbag. Rohit got up in a hurry, spilling a little of her coffee.
He towered over her petite frame. They walked out of the coffee shop,
together.
The street outside was empty, Rohit looked at his watch, it was after
11 p.m, had they really been that long in the shop? He turned back,
and saw a man pulling the shutters down on the little coffee place.
Apparently, they had kept the poor man waiting. He saw Lisa walking
ahead, her lithe frame draped in a floral printed white sleeveless
dress, her hair billowing in the wind. He realized it must have rained,
the weather seemed a lot cooler. Lisa slowed her pace and let him fall
in pace with her.
“Was it such a bad idea, then?” Lisa smiled, slipping her hand through
his arm. Rohit went rigid for a moment, and then his heart started
racing....it was quite rare for a woman to have such an effect on him..
“No, not at all, actually I was thinking for your well being, how could
you want to walk with a man you barely know? I mean, who knows, I
could be a killer, right?” She smiled, her teeth glinting in the street
light, “Who knows I could be one, too?” He smiled uneasily. They had
walked for quite sometime, taking a by-lane right behind the coffee
shop.
“Where are we going? Shouldn't you go home, I could drop you
home..” The streets were so deserted and the dim lights playing hide
and seek in the shadow, how he regretted not taking his car, he would
have to walk the whole way back.
“Ah! Wouldn't you like that? Dropping me home?!” She laughed,
leaning over his shoulder, her voice mellow and teasing. Rohit felt his
ears burning, “I..I..”, he stuttered, embarrassed.
“Come on now, I was just playing with you, I live just down the road”
She pointed ahead to a dark alley,”That is a blind lane, isn't it?” He
was confused, the road ahead ended in a pitch dark nothingness, this
was hardly inviting. Rohit was regretting the whole thing, Arpita must
be worried...for a while when he had longed for some of excitement in
his dull bleak tepid life he had forgotten the comforts of it, the calm
security, the warmth of it...
Lisa had again increased her pace and she strode ahead without
looking back. Feeling an increasing sense of discomfort and alarm,
Rohit had no choice but to follow her. The uncanny fact was the whole
neighbourhood was deserted, he could hear a dog barking in the
distance. It was getting darker, the streetlights had dimmed somehow,
he saw her silhouette about ten feet away, her back towards him. He
was wondering if he could just walk away, but felt a bit protective
about her, he couldn't just leave her in the dark.
“Lisa, are we there yet? Where do you live? Lisa?!” He nudged her,
turning her to face him. It could have been the lighting, but her
face...her face seemed distorted somehow, her eyes dark cavernous
holes, engulfing him and in her hand was a long thin rod, emitting a
sickly green glow...
“Won't you help me home?” Lisa pleaded, her voice cracking, distorted
and filled with static...Survival instinct is strange and can kick in all of
a sudden...Rohit ran, he ran past the street lights flashing by, their
afterglow tailing him, the sad little coffee place closed for the night,
ran through the blaring traffic and ran home...
Panting and shaking he reached home, his fingers proved too thick
and shaky to pry open the lock, and then the door opened.
“Where were you? I was so worried? Why couldn't you carry your
phone?” Arpita looked genuinely haggard but angry at the same time.
He fell into her arms, wrapping her warmth about him, wishing he had
never left.
“What happened? Why are you shivering? Oh my God? Are you hurt, is
that blood?” She held his face in her palms, looking deep in his eyes,
searching for answers he didn't have. He freed himself from her arms
and walked across the room sliding into the couch of their living room,
too much in shock to do anything else, wishing he had never strayed
from his normal “boring” life....Arpita yelped in disgust,”that's not
blood, is it?...”, and then he noticed his hands, they were stained with a
thick gooey liquid.....and it glowed green.
Tuesday, November 17, 2015
Tuesday, September 29, 2015
"A question of life and death"
On one day among the countless that I've lived,
I decided to die.
To end this tedium and the farce,
To put out the light and close the shutters tight!
And then strangely that night the moon shone full and bright...
Streaming through the blind folds,
Moon beams danced in the shadows...
I was forced to live again,
Friday, May 8, 2015
Time
The next morning found her standing at the bus stop. It had
been about 10 minutes, but to T it seemed like an hour in the
sweltering heat...It was a hot humid day in May when hot air rose
from the street and the glare from windows of the cars stuck in
traffic gleamed silver. She glanced at her watch again, it was 10:30
am again, the watch had stopped working yet again...She sighed in
defeat, what's the deal with her and her watches, every single one of
them would give up on her after a while....she was sick and tired of
getting them repaired, for they would stop before long....She was
wondering whether she ought to catch the train, she must have missed
her bus...her thoughts were interrupted by the wails of the madwoman
who lived on the pavement by the bus stop, she wasn't really in pain
she just liked to curse at people passing by as she went about her
chores, like chopping vegetables or cooking or cleaning, T could
understand her misery, who would be happy living out on the street,
living your live in front of strangers and in such heat!!! But she
couldn't really sympathize with the woman now when she was screaming
obscenities at everyone on the street...Suddenly she spotted a red
blur about a few feet away from her, she hadn't missed her bus
after all....
Travelling
to work had never been very interesting somehow for T (though the air
conditioning inside was a big relief from the heat), she listened to
the radio and stared out as images kept flashing by her window. She
never had any real conversation with her fellow travelers, everyone
seemed to her like they belonged to an army of drones...so she was
surprised when a man with graying hair at the temples sitting right
behind her asked her what time it was, she couldn't hear him at
first, but he made sure she did, by tapping on her shoulder to catch
her attention. She was at first a little flabbergasted as she glanced
her watch to realize once again that time had stopped at 10:30 am for
her, she smiled sheepishly at him, “I am so sorry my watch has
stopped, I'll take it off...” she added almost to herself fumbling
at her catch of the watch, the man smiled back at her, “Time has
never been my friend as well, don't worry...”, she smiled feeling
uncomfortable, what an odd thing to say! She frowned, putting away
her wrist watch for good, she hugged her backpack to her chest and
settled herself in the seat, “When did you first notice?”, the
man was looking at her with a curious expression, “Excuse me?” she couldn't help
being curt, pulling the headphone out of her right ear, what did he
mean? He looked piercingly into her eyes, “When did you first notice
there was something wrong with time?”, T was completely taken
aback, what a psycho! “I am sure I don't know what you mean...my
watch stopped working this morning”, she shrugged her
shoulders. He seemed satisfied with what she said, and relaxed back
in his seat. She sighed, maybe it was the heat, driving people crazy,
mad women on the streets screaming and mad men inside the bus asking
god knows what! T forgot about the man as she listened to Cindi
Lauper softly singing,
“Then
you say - go slow,
I fall
behind -The second hand unwinds...”
It almost
took an hour for her to reach her destination, getting out in the
heat was quite a daunting task,
she took out her umbrella as she got down the bus. When the bus
passed her by she saw the man with graying hair at his temples
staring at her through the glass, she looked away feeling uneasy, what
was that all about? Her phone started ringing, she glanced at the
number, couldn't recognize it, decided to let it ring...enough
talking to strangers for a day!
She
didn't have much to do at work. It was a long tedious day, everyone
went about their business as usual....it was much later that
afternoon when she was hit with the same bizarre feeling she had been
feeling for quite sometime now...looking at the series of tube lights
down the corridor as she was filling her water bottle from the cooler
everything seemed unreal somehow, as if floating in mid air....she
shook her head, maybe she was feeling dizzy because of the mid day
heat...she could hear the clock ticking the seconds away on the wall
facing her...it was a strange moment, suspended in time when nothing
seemed real...and then it was gone, like a faint spell of
dizziness....her phone started ringing again, it was the same unknown
number, she frowned at the screen, didn't pick up again...She left a
bit early that day, thought of repairing her watch again...the shop
was just across the street near her office, in fact she got most of
her watches from that particular show room itself, but these days she
spent more time on repair jobs than anything else...she often thought of
buying a new watch, one with the latest design and all, lovely and
sleek but never got around to buying one. The woman at the counter
knew T quite well, she smiled at her and raised her eyebrows, “you
want to repair it again?, T smiled wistfully, “Well..I don't know
what else to do!”. She went ahead with the paper work putting the
faulty piece of machinery in a plastic container, asking T to
wait....T sat herself on the couch thinking why didn't she buy
herself a new watch? What was so hard about breaking routine? In
recent times, all her days seemed the same, all merging into the same
shapeless mass, there seemed to be the disturbing undercurrent of
things being meaningless, unreal...What if the man on the bus, the mad
woman on the street were the anomalies in the otherwise perfect
mundane system, anomalies which disrupted the smooth nothingness that
her life had become...The woman at the counter was calling her name,
T seemed shaken by the trail of her thoughts...
“How
much?” T asked reaching for her watch, “No charges my dear.”
The woman smiled at her sadly, “Some things can't be fixed.” T
stared at her, what did she mean? She mumbled her thanks and went on
her back home. The evening was much cooler, a gentle breeze soothed
her prickly nerves...the city enjoyed a brief spell of respite from
the heat, although the next day would be as hot as it was today and
the day after would be the same....a repetitive cycle that she seemed to caught in,
like a glitch in time....She couldn't shake this thought that
something seemed off with her world lately, something was not quite right....She went to bed that night trying to make sense of it all
but her brain was too tired to function and soon she was fading into
the darkness....
The
next morning found her standing at the bus stop...It had
been about 10 minutes, but to T it seemed like an hour in the
sweltering heat...It was a hot humid day in May when hot air rose
from the street and the glare from windows of the cars stuck in
traffic gleamed silver. She glanced at her watch again, it was 10:30
am again, the watch had stopped working yet again...She sighed in
defeat, what's the deal with her and her watches, every single one of
them would give up on her after a while....she was sick and tired of
getting them repaired, for they would stop before long....
“If you're lost
you can look - and you will find me
Time after timeIf you fall I will catch you - I'll be waiting
Time after time....
Time after time
Time after time
Time after time....
...Time after
time"
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